Time Capsule of Life.....

I recently came across my old blog that I began in 2005......it was a terrible time for me....at least at the time I thought it was, but from going back and reading my posts, I realized I was transforming, I was growing and for the first time in my life, I was expressing myself. In a bizarre manner, but can't go back now....I put my son through madness during these confusing times....not an easy thing to admit. He has grown to be an amazing young man, he is my hero, and will go far. Thank God. I had attempted to start my up my blog the recent past, but I was embarrassed by the old content, so again.....I would not delete the old postings....but I would not add anymore to it. Now I am at a place in my life where I am no longer ashamed of my past. I will start blogging again every few days....if people choose to read my thoughts, then feel free...go back....read my bizarre thoughts of the past..... I am stronger, wiser, and more resiliant than ever. You know, at the worst of my days I continued to persevere and not give up, even when I prayed for the differ. God knew I needed to remain here, carry on, and attack my demons. I have purpose, just like everyone else on this earth, and if my life experience can help even just one person, then I am happy. Because nothing, absolutely nothing that I have traumatically been through has been in vain. It was all meant to be, and otherwise I may have never seen the true beauty of this big world due to my own clouded perceptions. I am free, and I have peace. And,I actually like being me :)