Long time no post.........

Sometimes in life you never know what roads to take, or we get lost in the madness of our vicious cycling lives....that we don't stop, tp smell the roses, or to feel that breeze...we trush off to one appointmnent after another, bieng pulled every which way, until you can't it anylonger and you say........ STOP! I need a break, I need to rejuvinate, I need to prioritize my life....I need a psychologist....I need a vacation.....I just need to take care of ME!

That, is my point.....for the first time, in my 33 years of life on this earth, well, maybe we can push it back to about 6 months , I decided that I needed to live my own life, do what I want, without any influence from family or friends, just be me. And I have have experienced, the most serene way of living, like you would never even imagine. And it was so simple, really it was, I just started doing things without consulting anyone else, I used my own judgement, I was "the boss" no one else. So many people seek approval from their parents , loved ones or friends....but the truth is, these patterns or vicious cycles can go on, and on and on you centeries....and without even knowing it.....you have absolutely no control of your own life, as much as you deny it, you really don't, unless you did what I did, and that was to tell those negative people in my life, to back off, stop tellingme what to do, and to leave me alone, I don't want thier opininons, I didn't ask for their advice, so kindly step away from my "DANCE SPACE"......(dirty dancing, great movie...)........and furthermore I shall continue to raise my child, the son, whom I carried for 9 almost 10 months in my womb, I will continue to raise him in a non-violent fassion, just as I have been for all his life....and I will have patience, and empathy, and love, to spread around when he needs a little extra to get by.... and I will go to Heaven someday knowing, that I lived my life the way I wanted to. And no person on this earth could stop me from doing all I could to live a happy and peaceful exisitance on this earth, no man has right to stop me, because I am free. I am finally free.
Feb,18, 2006